Suzie

What happened?

I returned from my personal time away on a high. My encounter with God had been different, God had spoken to me in different ways, different from before. I felt God so strongly at Crowhurst, so overwhelming, I can't explain it, I was so tearful, and full of joy. So why, now that I have returned to everyday life do I feel so low and so disconnected? Why do I feel so tearful? I had this message from someone I love very deeply...

"Its OK don't worry, don't be sad, even if you feel tearful. Gods got your back, you are safe in His hands, what else could matter? no matter whats going on now, it will pass away, and God will remain. Find your strength in HIM. It'll be alright :) keep your chin up."

It is so true, but I have so many flaws and weaknesses, I am so far from perfect. I also now have so much to do again, work wise, and my whole body feels like some one has been swinging me around and smashing me against a wall. I am so thankful to God for so many things and all the lessons he gives me.

God placed a lovely caring person in my heart (if only he would let it be a full time part of his life), this person is young and challenging in some ways, so intelligent that even people I know, who at 50, are not as mature in their way of thinking. He can be so frustrating, always over analysing things to the point of death, justifying things with his own way of thinking and a need to guard himself, a sad need to be alone and people free. Refuses to let others help, (but only to a degree, thank the Lord), so as to protect himself from hurts or emotions (which he has a lot of). God put us all on earth to love and help one another, we do not have to face things alone, we have God first and foremost, God also places people around us, to help us (he has some of these to, praise the Lord that they still care even when he has hurtful things to say to them). Even when I have opposition from my husband about this person, God helps me to stand up for my actions and be bold and strong, fully supporting this person he placed in my heart to care about. God uses us to help others, I don't know why God asks me to do some things, especially when this person gives a reply I know God is telling me is wrong, I sometimes don't always do as I am asked, for this person (Father forgive me for this), which is the human side of me feeling scared and not listening. I just trust that God knows what he is doing, he is our Father, a person who loves us more than any one can. God revealed something to me about this person, the only person I can discuss it with is God. A challenge from God to keep something for however long it takes to come about. Thank you God, I love you with my whole heart, and fully trust you. Father God I thank you for everything you continue to do in this persons life, I thank you for all the little changes you can see, Father I thank you for the people that you place around him, to help him, Father I thank you for him and all his contributions to church and to others around him, some of which I don't think he has a clue about. Thank you Father for the strengths you give him, and for his weaknesses, that shows so much. Thank you for his openness. Thank you Father and I pray that you will continue to put friends around him that care and won't let him down too often (Father that he knows friends will let him down sometimes because they are human and not perfect, that his heart will be full of forgiveness for these times), that friends will bring about more trust in you, that will soften his heart and make him feel less insecure (Father you know what these are), that he will learn that some things just are from you and need only a thank you and not a long drawn out session of why? Father I place this person into your loving arms, I ask that you will protect him at all times from satan and remove any influences that he may have on his life. I pray all this in Jesus name, Amen.

Anyhow, I feel a little better, not so down now after blogging. Gonna go and do some of the work if I can move enough and get motivated lol. God Bless everyone and peace be with us all soon. xxx

posted by suzie @ 8:28 AM